Hi Everyone, brian botkiller here.
I’m taking a hiatus from Vertigo Venus. Ok, don’t freak out. I”m doing enough of that for the both of us.
For years now, Vertigo Venus has been my all-encompassing passion, I have devoted as much time to it as I possibly can, and I’ve seen good success at it. But, unfortunately, I feel that with recent events in my life, I simply cannot continue to fulfill my duties as manager/drummer/marketeer for the band. Therefore, I am taking a hiatus from these positions in the band and I am going to focus on some other things which I have not put time into in a while, namely, myself. It scares the hell out of me, because I’ve been a working musician for going on eighteen (yes, eighteen) years now. But, I am just not feeling the fire that I usually do at this time. I can’t in good conscience drag down the energy of the band I love as I feel that way, and I have to pay attention to myself at the same time. I am also part owner of a great company, OBEDIA, in which I teach people how to record and produce music in the digital world. I plan on devoting time to this, as well as other things.
I have played, in the past 18 years or so, probably somewhere to the tune of 2,000 shows. I’ve been a driving force in many scenes, and I’ve worked with amazing people, musicians, creatives, and more. I am very thankful for this. I have always defined myself as a musician, and I will continue to do so. However, I have to figure out in what ways I define myself outside of that now, in order to continue doing it properly.
I always used to look at amazing musicians in huge bands, and when they’d announce they were going on a hiatus or resigning, I never understood how they could do that; until now. I can see now that sometimes, it all becomes too much. If you don’t know how to deal with it properly and you continue moving without looking at the lines on the road, you veer off and you can get into trouble. I’m trying to cut that off at the pass.
I am not resigning from the band, but I do not know when I am returning at this time. I hope that when/if I am able to, the band will be in a place to bring me back on. I am very appreciative of the support I have received for so many years from so many great fans. I am sorry to my band and my bandmates that this is how things have gone for me, and I’m grateful for their support. I do not plan to stop drumming, however I will probably not be on a stage for a while. I do plan to continue my work as brian botkiller, producing electronic music and hopefully playing some shows and DJ sets. I would love to see some of you at those shows.
I welcome your questions and thoughts, if you have them. Thank you for all your support in this time.